Sunset

I'm currently in Baltimore for a work trip, & I am LOVING Maryland. Not only have I had the BEST crabcakes known to man, but I am seriously enjoying being back in a real city. This was what was waiting for me when I got back to my hotel room this evening. Does it get any better than beauty like this?

Gravity

Sara Bareilles has a new album out that you must must must check out. She is one of my favorite newer artists, and her last album was one that stayed in constant rotation for quite some time. In fact, it is still one of my favorite "go to" albums. Her new album is equally fantastic, and worth the pennies you will spend to pick it up.

This is, perhaps, my most favorite song of hers. So beautiful with so many meanings. Enjoy.

Taking A Holistic Approach

I've been trying to make some changes to my diet and habits lately, in an attempt to move this whole "I want to have a baby" thing along. My husband & I have not had the best of luck, but I am determined to not see a fertility doctor.

You might say I was a little stubborn. Ok ... a lot stubborn.

I really want this to be as holistic as I can possibly make it. The hippie in me wants to do this naturally, free of drugs and tests and chemicals. I know that at some point, I will give in and go see a doctor if I don't get pregnant soon [it's been almost a year since we started trying again], but for now I'm pushing the holistic approach.

This means herbs. Lots of herbs. I'm also trying to cut out the things that I know to not be very condusive to trying to get preggers. The wine is hard, because I love my wine. The coffee is even harder. I'm from Seattle. Coffee runs through my veins. And I've been drinking it for so long, that the headaches when I do try to quit are a major bitch. But -- baby steps, no pun intended! I need to do everything that I can, change what can be changed & fix what needs to be fixed to feel good about making this work.

I'm also going to start doing some more reading on the topic. I've found some really great books about fertility and am looking forward to starting those. I need to get over this worry & fear that it will never happen again & concentrate on being HAPPY. I know the moment I let it all go and stop worrying will be the moment it happens for us again. Easier said then done on so many levels, but I will continue to stay positive!

Peer Pressure

I completely suck at blogging. I used to LOVE it. In fact, I still do love it. But I have found that time has been an issue for me lately, as well as finding a voice. But I've recently been peer pressured into blogging more [*ahem* .... you know who you are. :)] so I'm going to make an attempt.

I have another blog out there in the blogosphere that I would consider pretty successful. My monthly traffic lingers around 4,500 hits a month, which is pretty decent for a website that consists of nothing but ramblings. September saw a whopping six posts from me, and still my traffic stays high. I don't get it. But I also have a VOICE over there. A consistent theme that for the last two years I have stuck to. A voice that a lot of people can relate to.

But I sort of got tired of that voice [hence, only six posts this month]. Not that I don't love the life that I lead, or the things that i do. But that purpose has started to wear on me. I sort of need a break. Blogging over there, more or less, has become a chore. And I definitely don't like that feeling. Which is why I started this blog, and didn't really mention it to people. I wanted to start fresh, and to open my world to things that didn't necessarily fit over there, but that I loved none the less.

But finding that voice -- that one thing to keep the posts coming -- has been difficult. I feel sort of random here. Like I don't really have something to stick to. Just me, writing. Random things.

Maybe it's a good thing. I wanted a place where nobody knew me. Where I could say the things that I wanted to say honestly, without fear of backlash from friends or family. A very small handful of people know about this site, and they are all people that I trust completely to not judge or cast me away for something that I have said. Anybody else who finds their way over here is extra, and welcome! [Hello!]

But I feel like I need a purpose to write, and I haven't really found that purpose yet -- a reason to keep people coming. I will get there, I suppose. Eventually. And in the mean time, I'll just keep writing my random thoughts down, and thanks to the peer pressure, I will try to do it more often ;)

That is all. :)

A Few Of My Favorite Things

Cold, windy Autumn mornings.
Something warm to sip on.
Hoop earrings.
Over-sized couches.
Not having to go to work on a week day.
A worn out pair of sweat pants.
Lazy Sunday mornings in bed with the husband & dogs.
Any adorable, cute & fuzzy baby animal.
A great cup of coffee.